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2011-07-31T12:41:00.003+08:00

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Teddy bear gives

2010-03-08T23:37:00.005+08:00

... bear hugs.

失眠

2010-03-02T01:14:00.001+08:00

又來？

好悶。

晚安。

Action of the Month - Badminton

2010-02-11T22:35:00.003+08:00

It has been the 3rd time of the month playing badminton with my buddies. (Thank you for playing with me!) It was fun.

Love chasing the shuttlecock to impossible-to-reach corners.

Love the feeling of being totally focused on its movement & being mindful of my body movements.

Love to hit the empty spaces of the opponent.

Love to receive all the difficult attacks.

Love to imagine how I can improve.

Realised that some attributes that contribute to successful work in life have helped me in badminton:

1. Be focused. Focus on the 'ball' (shuttlecock), the movements, the opponent and myself, that's all. Don't think of what to eat for supper, chat too much, and especially, don't worry about how lousy I am (well, if I am really lousy, so be it, don't have to feel bad about being amateurish).

2. Be steady. Breath, observe, then swiftly move, with balance. I used to pace backwards instinctively every time the opponent hits, but this proves inefficient as they will like to just hit lightly to the front of court.

3. Tune into the 'Tao'. The way. There is always a way to hit far and high, with the least strength and in the most comfortable manner. The most efficient & natural way is 'Tao'. Instead of just giving hard force and hurting myself, have to listen and discover the 'Tao'.

4. Enjoy. Ignore what other people may see me. Enjoy the process. Appreciate that after the exercise, my body is healthier and I feel more confident.

May the action of the month remains as action of the year. Just do it!

Drama-mama

2010-02-09T21:30:00.003+08:00

我們愛看戲

壞人很賤

在電視機前跺腳、甩著手指打罵

卻還是盯著眼不放

投入電影故事里

自己也穿上了灰甲

騎著馬在平原上戰斗

心跳加速、汗水從額頭滴下來

我常常幻想自己也經歷一場drama

能在一場風雨帶領人群面對困境

很有英雄的感覺

或者有壞人把我鎖在籠子里

英雄撞破玻璃窗進來

看見我楚楚可憐

覺得心酸，頓然man起來，把壞人打倒

然后再把壞人倒轉掉起來等警察抓

看戲看書能抒發內心的幻想

給予自己新的生命

好像Avatar活在一個神奇的世界

當然

人生如戲

戲如人生

還蠻享受我的人生如戲

雖然不是那么多姿多彩

只要細心觀看

不要轉臺

就能享受到許多

溫馨小品、激勵短片、感動愛情長篇小說、職場有趣的漫畫、搞笑喜劇片。。。

睡不著

2010-01-25T01:45:00.003+08:00

有可能是心理作用

傍晚喝奶茶

第一次凌晨兩點睡

第二次凌晨四點

今晚又會如何呢？

睡覺好悶哦

2010 resolutions

2010-01-24T17:35:00.002+08:00

1. Engage in an exciting new activity!
Get involved in performing arts? Complete a 10 km run? Initiate a new social project?

2. Enjoy work

Just do it. Experience and learn the processes and essential skills in an established organization.

3. Embrace a healthy lifestyle

Mind: Focus on opportunities instead of fear & worries, express love & appreciation to friends and family.

Body: Fruits, nuts, seeds, multi-grain cereals, exercise especially.

Spirit: Be in the present moment, just be.

He plays computer games, I talk

2009-12-27T21:02:00.004+08:00

Different people has different ways of dealing with stress/feeling down

I know some guys don't like to talk about it

They play games, eat, sleep etc

I have to talk about it, or write about it

Why am I (or us Venus people) like that?

No explanations needed.

Just like tigers eat meat, cows eat grass. (quote from 许冠文 Michael Hui's talk show)

We are like that.

When we talk

Just listen and empathize

No need solutions, no need to explain too much what happened, why like that etc

Unless you see that we are like, asking for advice

Because... usually we know what we should do

Saying our feelings out is the way we de-stress

The most important is.. don't judge

Like now, I am just saying out with no particular reason and not to anyone in particular

Especially when he always listen when I talk :p

Avatar

2009-12-22T00:41:00.004+08:00

Beautiful :)

Experiential o_o

Love... :$

Recommend: must watch 3D in cinemas!

**Caution: spoilers ahead**

Though.. can't help but think that

Avatar =

Princess Mononoke 幽灵公主 (anime on humans want to conquer forest, forest creatures detest, city man fall in love with jungle girl, there was also a sacred jungle, whole story focus on protecting the environment)

+ Laputa: Castle in the Sky (anime on flying cities)

+ Blue Hole 蓝洞 (manga that I read 10 years ago, humans travel into the land of dinosaurs and stupidly wanted to destroy the mighty sacred tree)

+ Surrogates (humans hook on machines and living themselves through robots)

+ Pocahontas ('civilised' people travel into new land, one 'civilised' man fall in love with tribal girl)

+ Captivating Art + Advance 3D-Effects

Watched many movies with similar contents. It is so sien that I can rarely feel superbly AWED by a movie. Eg, there are so many movies on saving the environment already that even me as a tree-hugger feel numb.

Fortunately, the world created in Avatar is really beautiful. I always love trees and fantasies anyway. Even if the contents were cliche to me, I still enjoyed the whole movie and experience. There were unexpected wonders in Pandora. Enjoyed traveling in Avatar. Enjoyed the journey with teddy bear. Enjoyed the colours and the love.

有创作就好了

2009-12-20T13:03:00.010+08:00

懒洋洋
躲在房间晒太阳
聆听五月天
翻着女友时尚杂志
幻想到Barcelona照相、穿得时尚到New York Central Park散步

发现自己竟会带来自由
在外向、好动的拼块
加入新的拼块--“爱创作（事物）”
这里‘创作’是个很好听、很浪漫的用词
不单只文艺创作（反正我不是那么厉害，呵呵）
也包括安排活动、忘情唱歌、大声说故事、写部落格

现在看见一幅新的图画
傻傻的诗铭平凡地活着
纵然现在没有大事业、大成就、大能力
反正已经知道方向
有不断地做我爱做的事情就好了
有创作就好了

Tarot Reading

2009-12-19T23:25:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the first time I got a Tarot reading, although as a Pisces-day-dreamer I was very intrigued by it for a long time. Surprisingly, most of the things he said are quite accurate. Fun! Thank you tarot consultant.

Tarot Consultant:

1. My personality

I am a creative person, I like to create things. Recently I was quite upset with something, but things will get better. So now I should reflect more and see things clearly.

He gave me another insight of me, that is I LIKE TO CREATE THINGS. Hell YES I DO. That explains a lot of my career and life direction!!

2. My relationship

There is a new guy in my life, which brings a lot of vigor and freshness to me. This will be a steady and good relationship.

:$ :$ So true.. Hope all's well ends well with him..

3. My self-development

As I like to create things, and another point I have that forgotten what he said, I tend to spend a lot. Have to control my financial expenses.

Different, different. Quite the opposite, I am a very "kedekut" person. Every time I spend money I easily feel guilty. Will take note then, probably it represents another thing rather than financial situations?

4. My career

My career is developing slow at the moment, it is not the time to harvest yet. Forgotten his advice on what to do next.

Just do it!!

5. To conclude

I am now in a searching mode, and lost touch of what is in front of me. Have to find my bearing.

True.. I am literally searching most of the time, and lost touch of the present moment, of what I already have. The one Ah-HA insight is that I like to create. Start to get ideas of what I can do with my life. And this is also a grounding reminder that I have to be more mindful and focused.

Searching for My Destiny

2009-11-28T13:14:00.005+08:00

I always thought I am clear of what I want in life, what I like to do etc. Not until started job hunting and working.

I am sure about my goal in life: to make the world a better place. It is not really saving the world. It is simply leaving a clean profit, bringing more benefits to the world rather than minuses. My final career, has to be directly contributing to the benefits of the society, whether it is working with old people, orphans, or teaching etc.

But what is my profession in my life? Looking at my strengths and interests. I can say that I like dealing with people, come up with creative (stupid) ideas, keep things nice and tidy and fun. Having got out of Food Science and decided that this is not something that has me burning with passion, I don't have much basic for other career profession. I like marketing, but I don't have any backgrounds in marketing. I don't mind teaching or in non-profit organisations but just want to work in somewhere else first.

Searching, thinking, examining with personality tests... I bump into a few articles in my Google Search which gave me a new perspective of my soul (career) search.

“It isn’t normal to know what we want. It is a rare and difficult psychological achievement.” - psychologist Abraham Maslow

What I just realised is, I can never find out what I am meant to be, just by sitting there and analysing alone. I have to do the work and experience, only I get to feel what is suitable. Be in the moment.

"Moments matter most. Build off of a few strong moments, follow the path they lay out for you, and trust your direction. They will not let you down." - Marcus Buckingham, Oprah article on "How Do I Discover My Purpose"

Guess for now, let go of searching. Just do it and ehi passiko (means "come and see" in Pali language)! As my future is built by all the present moments. If the moments are fitting and fantastic, so will my future be :)

明天一定会更好

2009-11-18T15:27:00.003+08:00

不知道是自己容易满足还是神经太大条

觉得自己一生的经历算是顺畅的

虽然是有不幸的事情发生在家里或自己身上

过了一段时间，连痛苦的感觉也忘了，剩下历史性记载的回忆

而且无论好坏与否，许多过去的事情都带来了成长空间与发展机会

总觉得，我一定会得到好收获

直到前一年认识 The Secret 的吸引力法则 (Law of Attraction)

开始怀疑这道理是不是可以解释我的遭遇？

它的提倡，让我更相信，明天会更好

只要真心对待每一个人，不管他如何回报你

只要帮助人时，自己也要清醒，懂得保护自己

只要保持正念，不要成天抱怨

只要记得，我来到这世界上要带来什么、得到什么

我一定会如愿以偿

就算得不到我要的结果

正面的思维和态度也会让我的人生充满朝气

吸引力法则在我身上应验了。明天会更好。

Addiction

2009-11-16T01:40:00.004+08:00

Isn't addiction scary? You know you have to stop, but you just can't stop. Even if you stop for a period of time, once you pick it up, the whole string of addiction come back to live. The emotional mind just can't be controlled by pure logical reasoning. There has to be something, some way other than discipline, to counteract addiction. Something that directly engages the emotional mind, distracts it and lure it to somewhere more productive. There has to be an action that can substitute the act of committing the addiction. That action has to be fun, so that it is easier to start it...

Addiction to procrastination. Addiction to worry. Addiction to feelings. Addiction to past. Addiction to instant noodles. Addiction to staying up late. Addiction to reading.

The Last Career Guide You'll Ever Need

2009-10-27T18:57:00.009+08:00

Just finished reading The Adventures of Johnny Bunko. The book is "written" in the form of manga. It talks about Johny Bunko who is stuck in a dead-end job as an accountant. During a night he pops a pair of chopstick apart and boomz! An anime-cal lady Diana just pops out of mid-air, becomes his career advisor and guides him and his colleagues through various projects.

Well, here are the 6 essential lessons, as quoted from Diana:

1. There is no plan.

No matter how we plan, things will still change. At the middle of the road, we still have to make decisions if the plan is not working, depending on the reasons.

We often do something for one of two reasons: instrumental reason and fundamental reason. Instrumental reason is you think it's going to lead to something else, regardless of whether you enjoy it or it's worthwhile. Fundamental reason is you think it's inherently valuable, regardless of what it may or may not lead to. The most successful people make decisions for fundamental reasons.

2. Think strengths, not weaknesses.

Research found that the key to success is to steer around your weaknesses and focus on your strengths. What do you consistently do well? What gives you energy rather than drains it? What sorts of activities create "flow" for you?

3. It's not about you.

It's about your customer. It's about your client. The most successful people improve their own lives by improving others' lives. They bring out the best in others.

4. Persistence trumps talent.

What do musicians and athletes do that others don't? They show up. They practice and practice and practice some more. That's why they do so well in whatever career they choose--even if it's not sports or music. What's the most powerful force in the universe? Compound interest. A little bit improves performance, which encourages greater performance even more. And on and on it goes.

That's why intrinsic motivation is so important. Doing things not to get an external reward or a promotion, but because you simply like doing it. The more intrinsic motivation you have, the more likely you are to persist. The more you persist, the more likely you are to succeed.

5. Make excellent mistakes.

The most successful people make spectacular mistakes--huge, honking screwups! Why? They're trying to do something big. But each time they make a mistake, they get a little better and move a little closer to excellence.

6. Leave an imprint.

You're young now, but when you get older and look back at your life, you'll ask yourself a whole bunch of questions. Did I make a difference? Did I contribute something? Did my being here matter? Did I do something that.. leave an imprint? The trouble is, many people get towards the end of their lives and don't like their answers. And by then it's almost too late.

The truly successful people deploy them in the service of something larger than themselves. They leave their companies, their communities, their families a little better than before. This isn't just career advice, guys. In some ways, this is what it means to be alive.

Wow.. Just after copying out her wisdom. These lessons are really what we often learn from the successful people and motivational gurus. Well said well said! If you like it, you may borrow it from the national library :p Nice reading if you don't have time but need the motivational pump-up.

Don't take things TOO seriously

2009-10-25T23:10:00.004+08:00

It took me a while to learn, that we don't have to take things TOO seriously. Of course we have to be serious at work, in relationships etc. But very often, we crossed the border, and fell off the cliff into the valley of anxiety.

Customer feedbacks, planning errors, what people think of you, people not taking your ideas into account, people not doing the way you like it to, not doing a good job, don't know what to do, don't know how to write, some emotion problems etc.

The most productive mental state is more relaxed than I thought. It is the fine line, where engines roll, giving it has got, minus the excess stress, anxiety and worry.

A lady in her 70s told me, "What I have learnt from all these years, is we don't have to be so attached to things in life. Just do your best, and whatever happens, let them be. Don't have to be so attached."

I easily throw myself into the valley, getting so stressed up that nothing is produced. Time to relax a little and fine tune towards the peak mental state*.

*Peak mental state =

engines rolling in full speed

- uncomfortable (stress + anxiety + depression + fear + worry)

Ahh.. Just have fun.

Finding the Way

2009-10-13T22:24:00.002+08:00

If not motivated to carry on a journey, recall what is the destination.

If still don't know which way to reach, ask.

美人魚的愛

2009-10-06T00:21:00.010+08:00

小時候最愛的童話故事

是美人魚的故事

尤其是迪士尼版

因為那動畫是喜劇收場

記憶中

小手拿起的美人魚繪圖故事

是蠻凄涼的

為什么

明明是美人魚把王子救上岸

為了讓自己進入王子的世界

還犧牲了嗓子

王子卻到最后與另一個女人在一起

而美人魚化成泡沫

偶然之下

我得到了答案

是

愛

沒有條件

無需回報

只有付出與祝福

愛到圓滿

其實不會后悔

更不會覺得委屈

反而

覺得能愛過是幸福的

感謝我的美人魚們

(我爸、嫲嫲、影響我思想但名字化成泡泡的老師們...)
和緣分給我機會演美人魚

家有一老如有一宝

2009-09-27T22:34:00.000+08:00

耐心行

2009-09-22T21:53:00.005+08:00

千里之行

始于足下

再遠的距離

也要靠一步

一步地

走進

路途不會配合埋怨

而縮短

反而垂頭喪氣

只會讓旅程更漫長

人本性難移

清楚定下自己成長的終點

亦要一步一步

耐心

鑒定

走向進步

哭

2009-08-26T23:53:00.004+08:00

Photographer: Unknown

我很容易流泪

感动

委屈

朋友谈恋爱时

男友送礼物时

不被重视时

看悲伤戏时

朋友离开时

我忍不到

也不想忍

Gone are the Trees

2009-08-10T15:23:00.006+08:00

- Nadine Laporte, WHRC

As far as I am concerned with increasing bald area on top of my head,
I feel equally sad when I see the balding patches at my hometown.

Where it was green and hill-y one year ago,
big pieces of land are now bright red and flat.

Even after I returned after a few months,
no progress was found.

Even if there are trees planted in developed areas,
they are often small, thin,
and planted far apart.

Do they need to terminate hectares of trees so early prior to their 'project'?
I have seen several areas where the bright red land is left to rot for years,
just in Rawang alone.
It doesn't seem that they really plan whether land clearing is neccessary
or execute construction according to plan.

Without trees,
we are exposed to the burning sun.
With less trees,
we breath in more carbon dioxide and dust.
With less trees,
our environment is getting hotter.

It is a sad case.
The phenomenon of unwise use of land at my home has not change much,
since I start moving here 10 years ago.
I don't think it will really improve,
until we are too late.

Each time I see a bald patch on our land,
it stings me.

无惧

2009-08-02T20:31:00.005+08:00

害怕担心

别人觉得自己很懒惰、做事不专业

这可能是造成过去压力的头号原因

太介意别人对自己的眼光

别人对自己的想法

真的那么重要吗？

如果他人看误会了

那为什么还介意？

清者自清

如果自己真的不足

努力改进就好了

过去太害怕担心别人的看法

担忧转变成压力

不想工作、拖延、疲倦、头痛

面对现实

自己的本分要尽力

不能改变的（他人的想法、嘴巴等等）

要平常心面对，从中学习，放下

不惧怕，就是当下的快乐

Empty

2009-07-29T21:12:00.007+08:00

Almost got knocked down by a car. Thanks to all the conditions that I am still alive now.

For a long while, I have been feeling empty. I have been putting this feeling aside for many times. But it is still there. Like I am living in a dream. I don't feel real. Don't feel solid.

...

Let it be. Empty feelings in the inner soul can't be filled by clinging to external objects, actions or even relationships. Look within. Look within. Sit still. Watch the beautiful world around. Count blessings. Be mindful. Be grateful. Be compassionate. Observe.
The Triple Gems will guide me through my way. I take refuge in the Buddha, my teacher (not idol). I take refuge in the Dharma, his teachings. I take refuge in the Sangha, the community of practitioners.
With palms folded. Thank you, world. I love the world, the people, my family, my friends and myself, no matter what you have given me, even if I feel empty.
I am not worried or saddened by this 'emptiness'. It is just an emotion. It is just a mode of information. One day it will reveal a piece of previously unknown information about myself.
Up til now, not much regrets in my life. Just do my best and leave the rest.

My Precious...

2009-07-12T21:46:00.007+08:00

Family

They are the main reason why I enjoyed my graduation ceremony so much. Having three of them coming down to Singapore purposely for me just thrilled me.

My mom kept taking pictures of me, when I was posing, taking pictures with my friends, chatting with my friends, walking, arranging hair and robes, putting items on chair, etc. I guess in her eyes, I am forever her baby.

My sister was enjoying herself eventhough I didn't have much time for her. She snapped photos of different objects while we were busy. She is constantly curious about Singapore. Having her around makes me feel like I am a traveller spending my vacation right here.

My pak pak was smiling all the way. He patiently waited when there is nothing for him to do, kept taking videos of us. After the video camera battery went flat, he used his handphone to take pictures.

I had such a great time with them that I cried when they left! I thought I was independent leh..

Of course, I am very very grateful to my cousin sister Sook Yee and cousin brother Cheng Ho who gave me this superb bouquet of flowers and graduation bear, my housemates for buying me a cow who is holding a rose, Mei Fei and Hui Yee who brought this cute pink sunflower to me all the way. Thank you ^_^

Last but not least.. thank you my dear who helped me keep my family company when I was busy, helped me carry heavy/bulky items all the way, take pictures...

To Love Someone

2009-06-28T21:19:00.003+08:00

To love someone

is to experience every other emotion outside of love and still come back to love.

To love someone

is to feel hurt or pain and be able to overcome it and forget about it.

To love someone

is to realize that the other person is not perfect. It is being able to see their bad parts, but put emphasis on the parts you love, and gladly accept them for the individual he/she is.

To love someone

is to lay a strong base for your feelings, but leave room for some fluctuation, because to feel exactly the same way all the time would leave no room for growth, experience and learning.

To love someone

is to be strong at accepting new ideas and facts. It is knowing that a person will not stay the same, but also that change happens gradually.

To love someone

is to give until your heart aches. The greatest gifts shared between two people are trust and understanding, which come from love. Love is giving one-hundred-and-ten-percent of yourself and only wanting something as simple as a smile in return.

To love someone

is to be able to see not only with your eyes but with your heart. It is to develop insight into your feelings and the other person's feelings, and to have a good understanding of your relationship.

To love someone

is to give of yourself totally, saying, "Here I am, and all that I am loves you very much." It is not twisting and turning and changing yourself to gain approval, but it is improving yourself so that your good points catch the other's attention and overshadow your faults.

-Anonymous-

How worse can it gets?

2009-06-21T22:04:00.005+08:00

What is the worst thing that can happen to you?

Rejections, client scoldings, client say I'm bad, no results, didn't work hard enough, quoted something wrongly to clients, offend clients, dealing with nasty clients, couldn't deliver results to clients and they hate me and my company which causes bad reputation, make stupid mistakes, boss don't like me or colleagues don't like me while I am still working there, learn nothing from the experience, when things don't work out have to leave with a bad impression and spoilt relationships yet couldn't find job after that.

Why are you afraid of people not liking you?

*paused* Because I appreciate relationships with them. I need to live with them.

And if they don't like me it means I am not good enough.

But there are so many other people around, why just focus on these few who already don't like you?

Er....

IF you leave this group of people with bad ends, will you be able to bump with them back again?

Nope, quite impossible.

So what are you worrying about?

I want to feel relaxed and have fun!!

2009-06-20T22:40:00.003+08:00

I want to

- Feel calm and mindful (instead of nervous and stress).

- Be able to understand what people need and be able to help them.

- Be energetic!

- Enjoy my work.

- Play.

- Have fun!

跑回（出）记忆

2009-06-10T23:20:00.003+08:00

本来非常有纪律的一周一次

变成零次

今天再次跑步

选择了充满回忆的 Choa Chu Kang Park

经过和上次同一条跑道

听着上次听的 88.3 fm

电台竟然播着与那回忆共鸣的歌

戴爱玲的“对的人”，阿妹和萧敬腾的“一眼瞬间”，梁静茹的“爱你不是两三天”

两次跑步隔八个月

心情截然不同

虽然现在不完全没有包袱

可已感觉轻盈好多

活好现在

就算要跑

也要往前看

看路有没有香蕉皮

放手的爱

2009-06-03T23:07:00.005+08:00

我的“爱”经常浑浊
掺杂着
失去的恐惧
利己的欲望

以致我为“爱”的人
绑上了一圈又一圈的枷锁
枷锁连着许多条鱼线
系在我的手指

我越“爱”
拉得越紧
我“爱”的人喘气挣扎
颈项手臂被磨得黑青
手指的血也一滴滴沿着鱼线流

————
我的爱经常被提炼
加入了
刚打开的第三只眼
和带着自信独立花纹的枕头

以致我为爱的人
献上一条窜了很多鼓励与祝福的项链
也为自己戴上了一模一样的项链

我越爱
越集中精神地瞭望
我爱的人奔跑探索时注意到了
停下脚步望回我
我们轻轻地抚摸着自己的项链
因为项链传递着对方的心跳

Challenge

2009-05-19T00:18:00.009+08:00

Every work day is a game.

Every cold calling is a round of small fightings and going through roadblocks.

Every appointment is a session with the 'Big Boss'.

Play hard, but play smart.

Let the games begin!

诗人

2009-04-09T20:43:00.003+08:00

“Daddy, 为什么我的名字叫诗铭？我的名字有什么意思？”

“Er...因为我想你变成诗人。”

（心里想）“什么是诗人？”

这是我小学时一段模糊的情景
爸爸坐在懒惰椅
考虑了几秒才回答
仿佛从来没有想过我名字的意思
而当场编一个给我听

就算到了中学知道诗人是什么
却察觉不到我哪里像个诗人
甚至发觉自己并没有太多艺术天分

直到大二遇见了伯乐
第一次听到有人说我的文笔很好
我才放心地在创作的天空中张开翅膀

现在我静下来
就会看见
一男一女在我脑里上演舞台剧
泰山在路边大树上摇脚
快餐店里的店员和食客唱着百老汇歌曲
还有
心里的小小诗人忘我地跳舞

Corridor of Doors

2009-03-22T21:32:00.005+08:00

I used to have the keys to this door, the only key.
But now it is locked, with a different set of key-code.

I knocked on it, talked to it,
while holding fresh colourful flowers behind my back.
The door replied with silence.

The air has slowly condensed into dense droplets.
Rain would fall on me in this corridor in ten minutes.

I just wanted to say,
thank you
for offering me a place to
stay, groom and transform.
And
you are truly beautiful and inspiring.
Just in case you got me wrong when I left.
When you are ready one day,
I could drop by again.

The flowers leaned against the opposite wall
and listened to the diminishing footsteps,
while breathing out a fragrance of respect and good wishes.

There are many more doors yet to be explored.
Til we meet again. Smile!

由谁来决定规则没有这样的必要

2009-03-18T23:52:00.003+08:00

我偶尔是会喜欢很吵的歌曲，条件是它一定要有音乐感而不只是嘶喊。
而日曲很多摇滚歌具有丰富的音乐感。
喜欢这首歌的意境和勇敢。
我也是，不相信盲首规则。

《Rule》 - Dragonball Evolution 主题曲
作词与歌唱：Ayumi Hamasaki 作曲：Miki Watanabe

由谁来决定规则
没有这样的必要
但这是我们的规则
我们绝不让步

在这个时代，到底哪里还有希望
我们只能相信肉眼不见，触摸不到的事物
我只是沉默着，闭上眼，点着头
但是我们的确清楚地感觉到它们的联系

由谁来决定规则
没有这样的必要
但这是我们的规则
我们绝不让步

这个世界还不是应被舍弃的
即使乌云密布
我仍充分相信有着谁我是可以信任的
我深深呼吸，然后高声疾呼
那一天是你教会我一切并不是偶然，是必然的！

那一成不变的无聊规则
我并不想受之约束
就由我和你
把这规则打破

坚强到柔弱
柔弱到坚强的转换的一刹起
我感受到那些
可怕的事物已不复存在

由谁来决定规则
没有这样的必要
但这是我们的规则
我们绝不让步

*Warning! Noisy song ahead!*

谢谢你们给我的24岁生日礼物

2009-03-15T23:58:00.014+08:00

今年深深地领悟到我周围的人是多么用心、多么真诚。

（排名跟着时间顺序。。）

谢谢前一个星期就为崇煌和我庆祝的佛学会朋友：Kwek, Weizhan, Robby, Metty, Yip Hon, Isen.

谢谢May San, Miau Ching 星期四晚上给 Wenie与我一起庆祝。我真的没有预料到。(Photo Above )

谢谢实验室的人星期五的惊喜午餐、好幸福蛋糕、高贵项链、让我做工时会想起你们的面包。Thanks Chia Rou, Mei Ching, Ting Yan, Amelia, Fang Yin, Zhang Wei and Jun Lian. 女孩子，我给你们一个kiss! 加上给 Chia Rou 多一个 kiss!(Photo above)

谢谢阿一带我去吃够力有味道到我现在不能忘记的Waraku Japanese 紫菜拉面、送我围巾、主动祝我妈妈生日快乐、与我朋友“串通”以让他们可以给我惊喜。(No need photo lah)

超级超级感谢安排我生日晚上节目的所有人，尤其特地从吉隆坡和马六甲下来的许欣怡、陈素婷及老狼。还有才刚见面一次的劲铨。还有谢谢我很爱很亲的家人婉雯、佳湄、蒨俐、汇聪、章杰。我真的很感动。寻宝很好玩，礼物很贴心。看到欣怡和素婷委屈各别躲在衣橱和被单内，收到只有蒨俐才知道我要的牌子的去疤药，婉雯的贴纸提示、佳湄与汇聪的带动、章杰在我回到家之前紧张到走来走去、老狼劲铨躲在楼梯间送蛋糕，这些等等，你们成功了！我很安慰很感动 =) 给你们全部人一个爱的鼓励！再来一次！最后一次！(Photo above)

谢谢星期六和我吃午餐的 Chee Kin、可为、凯琳、晓雯及欣欣的到来。可琳永远都送我超级有用的礼物，今年是我与琳一起逛街我看到很喜欢的连身裙。晓雯送我一个也是很好用又好看的草莓包包。(Photo above)

还有谢谢所有寄短讯、在Facebook和在msn祝贺我的朋友们。不好意思我不放名字出来，因为有这里加起来会有超过70个人。我心里会记得你们的 =）

当然，还是要老套地，谢谢我爸爸妈妈。没有他们，就没有我。希望我妈妈生日快乐，健康开心。谢谢抚养我的嫲嫲。谢谢让我健康活到现在的所有众生和因缘。

等火车

2009-03-11T21:02:00.003+08:00

我
站在
没有云的蓝天下的
空旷的绿绿的草原中的
红褐色的铁路的旁边

手中
拿着
朋友的妈妈送的
布制的深绿色的
只装着三天衣服及两本小说的
旅行袋

前后左右
连一只小鸟或老鼠的小生命都没有
只有我静静地
望着
听着
走着
期待着

会有火车经过吗？
或一群牛仔骑着马追过来？
或卧虎藏龙电影里的沙漠山贼？

这没有云的天空很晒
我还以为整块地是面镜子

还有那没有人说话的声音很响
我以为我聋了

看不见尽头的铁路
我觉得我不可能走到下一站

下一辆火车会何时经过？
它
会为我停下
让我上车吗？

[Science News] Doctors Endorse Well-planned Vegan And Vegetarian Diets For Healthy Pregnancies

2009-03-03T09:45:00.004+08:00

ScienceDaily (Mar. 2, 2009)

"Experts agree that pregnant women can thrive on vegan diets. The American Dietetic Association, the nation's largest organization of food and nutrition professionals, states that "well-planned vegan and other types of vegetarian diets are appropriate for all stages of the life cycle, including during pregnancy, lactation, infancy, childhood, and adolescence." Vegetarian diets offer a number of nutritional benefits, including lower levels of saturated fat and cholesterol and higher levels of fiber, folate, and cancer-fighting antioxidants and phytochemicals.

'Women who follow vegan diets not only have healthy pregnancies, they are often healthier than moms who consume meat," says Susan Levin, M.S., R.D., staff dietitian with PCRM. "By eating a variety of fruits, vegetables, and other healthful vegetarian foods and including breakfast cereals or other foods fortified with vitamin B12, mothers and their children can obtain all the nutrients they need to thrive.'

Choosing a vegetarian or vegan diet can also help women avoid the unhealthy hormones and environmental toxins found in dairy products, meat, and fish. Analyses of vegetarians' breast milk show that the levels of environmental contaminants in milk are much lower than in non-vegetarians.

Vitamin B12 needs can be met easily with fortified breakfast cereals and soymilk, which are low in fat and calories. The most convenient and reliable B12 source is a daily multivitamin."

____________

An interesting article, sometimes even I myself think that vegetarian/vegan diet is not good enough for a pregnant mother.

There are two major kinds of diets for people who don't consume meat:
1. Ovo-lacto vegetarian don't take meat and seafood, but they still take eggs, milk and dairy products.
2. Vegans go further. They don't take eggs, milk, dairy products and anything that comes from animals.

Vitamin B12:
- Mainly found in: animal products like eggs, meat, poultry, shellfish, milk, and milk products. Yeast and microbes may also produce vitamin B12.

- One of the main concerns of not taking meat, is the lack of vitamin B12.

- Danger! Lack of vitamin B12 in pregnant mothers can cause neural defects to their babies and tiredness or memory loss in normal individuals.

- 1 cup of yoghurt serves 25% of our daily requirements, 1 cup of milk 15%, 1 hard-boiled egg 10%. Of course some meat may contain a higher amounts of vitamin B12.
(U.S. Department of Agriculture, Agricultural Research Service. 2003. USDA Nutrient Database for Standard Reference, Release 16. Nutrient Data Laboratory Home Page, http://www.nal.usda.gov/fnic/cgi-bin/nut_search.pl.)

- More details can be found in Dietary Supplement Fact Sheet: Vitamin B12 by National Institutes of Health.

My conclusion is, if not taking egg/dairy products, one has to make careful plannings to substitute the loss of vitamin B12, especially so for pregnant and lactating mothers.

FIRST run - 4.3km

2009-03-02T21:53:00.017+08:00

Wan Wen and I have just participated in the International Women's Day Fun Run/Walk at the Bedok Reservoir two days ago. (Thank you ww for coming with me!) I was very excited as I can finally put my "jog-once-a-week" training into test.

There were many young people and aunties in the fun run/walk, not to mention several Ang Mohs and a pet dog. (Was the lady in the picture amazed to see Ww and me?)

The scenery was not bad at Bedok Reservoir so we didn't feel bored at all. The only concern was the sky seemed more than eager to pour water on the runners and walkers. The run was not stressful to my body, in less than 34 minutes, we managed to finish 4.3km run. We even bumped into C Pearl at the finish line.

Heavy rain poured in after we finished. Probably our 4.3km run is just a warm-up for our dash -for-shelter at this time. We left with a goodie bag each, a sexy sports singlet, a PROUD heart and a hungry stomach.

Thank you organisers: Singapore Council of Women’s Organisations and NTU final year students.

I enjoy jogging. I really feel more confident and stronger after exercising for a period of time.

Next target: 10km-run.

【转帖】西班牙研究：祖父母帶大的孩子更懂事

2009-03-01T22:51:00.003+08:00

西班牙‧研究：心理更健康成長‧祖父母帶大的孩子更懂事

星洲日報／國際‧2009.03.01

（西班牙‧馬德里）據報導，一項最新的研究顯示，由家中的“老年人”照看有利於孩子們在心理方面的健康成長。

西班牙《世界報》報導，在英國的1010所學校中，耶路撒冷的希伯來大學和英國的倫敦大學的研究人員對近1515個年齡在11至16歲之間的學生進行了問卷調查。

更健談
樂於參與活動

結果顯示，與沒有老人照顧的學生相比，那些與祖父母住在一起的孩子更加健談，樂於參加社會活動，不易患多動症，而且言談舉止也更加得體。

研究人員認為，在那些來自單親和“重組”家庭、卻能與祖輩住在一起的孩子身上，這種積極效果更加明顯。

研究人員說，學校和社會救助中心等公共機構“應當承認老人有能力為未成年人提供情感方面的支持，尤其是那些來自破碎家庭的孩子”。

另一方面，祖輩的心理健康狀況也可以在照顧孫輩的過程中得到改善。

___________________

我是祖母带大的。Yeah!

说真的，我有认真考虑以后孩子由家婆或我妈带。

我很享受被我嫲嫲管教的过程。

听
她怎么经历失去丈夫还要带着六个孩子抚养成人、
“唐山”（中国）如何生活、
日本人统治他们3年8个月多么可怕
种种的故事。

是她教我惜福，不要浪费食物。
是她教我“入庙拜神，入屋叫人”。
是她教我孩子不可以只是打骂，还要解释倒他明白为止。

我爱她，希望嫲嫲身体健康！

大发现！蓝奕邦！

2009-02-28T21:43:00.003+08:00

我好喜欢他的音乐！

偶然之间点选他最新的专辑听，
发现它们有着英式摇滚的作风，
正是我喜欢的类型！

再上YouTube找找他的歌，
发现他有一首歌叫热带鱼。
热带鱼，曾是我写的一则小故事的主角。
在此献给你们听。
好喜欢这首歌的风格！

原来，他是个香港本地创作歌手、作曲人、填词人、舞台剧演员。他的音乐风格从原音，电子元素，到现在我刚刚听到的英式摇滚及爵士都有。他还曾为许多著名歌手填词作曲，如梁静茹、林忆莲、容祖儿、刘德华等。包括梁静茹《Fly away》的曲就是他作的。

懂得创作、自弹自唱、歌唱有感觉、风格豪爽，
他会不会取代方大同在我心中的位置呢？

对他有兴趣的话，可留意他的部落格《叫我藍邦》。

热带鱼
曲：蓝奕邦 | 词：蓝奕邦 | 编：蓝奕邦/李汉金

*热带鱼
鱼缸中一双一对谈不上挥之则去
大家不想太疲累功课做完大觉睡
鱼缸中懒惰浮游得过且过的屈居不进则退 *

兴那个跟那个抄个够吧书报里推介过然后你又赞它
大红人穿着过所以着吧总会有 AB餐无谓费神去拣

天光必然有天黑根本不用计算吧
思想保持最简单等个笨人站前哨
讲的不是你所想别做突出的那个
不需多动脑思考逃避现实做哑巴

Repeat *

兴那个听那个起势唱吧他会舞双截棍
然后你又去耍大红人讲那套反战说话
因你怕跟不上然后你又去反

催谷心灵喝鸡汤纤体矫形再美白
追捧他人爱追的帮个犯人做横额
偏激将弊处指出受尽大家的怪责
不需多动脑思考逃避现实做哑巴

热带鱼
鱼缸中针锋相对谈不上挥之则去
大家不想太疲累只要做人没顾虑
谁都可照样浮游开心得有点心虚
烂泥一堆或是物以类聚

Repeat *

Fish with a Transparent Head

2009-02-27T00:44:00.008+08:00

MACROPINNA MICROSTOMA: A "BARRELEYE" FISH

"This fish might look made for science—or just plain made-up—but it's 100-percent real. First described in 1939, this "barreleye" has been somewhat of a mystery to science. But researchers from the Monterey Bay Aquarium Research Institute were recently able to catch one of the deep-sea creatures and study it in a shipboard aquarium. They've learned that the fish can actually rotate its eyes upward to peer through its transparent, liquid-filled head. It's believed that the green color of the eyes (seen here looking sky-ward) might help to filter out sunlight so the fish can better spot its prey—glowing jellyfish—from its stomping grounds 2,000-2,600 feet (600-800 meters) below the surface."

Article by Katherine Harmon, 26 Feb 2009 at Scientific American.

____

Hi fish with transparent head and rotating eyes! Nice to meet you! This is such an interesting finding. We humans have so much more we don't know.

拭目以待

2009-02-24T11:29:00.000+08:00

我在看这套剧之前就已经在电台听到这首歌。
听了，很有能量与希望。
歌词，句句在表达这我现在的心声。
后来才发现，是本地(新加坡是我们的邻居，比较起中港台，它是本地）创作。
唱歌、写词曲都是我以前欣赏的：红毛派与小寒。

每一口呼气，我们离开过去，
每一口吸气，我们走向未来。
重生在呼吸间。

在这经济不景气的时段，
有些人找工，有些人找姻缘，有些人找人生的意义。
就让我们不要害怕，不要被打垮，
对过去检讨放下，
对未来拭目以待，
活好现在。

由于这首歌没有MV，只能用《我的未来不是梦》的片头影片。你可以直接scroll下去看歌词。我想分享的是词曲唱哦！还有黄俊雄很帅。

拭目以待
曲／唱：林倛玉
詞：小寒
Source: http://blog.omy.sg/xiaohan/category/詞點/

第一次的過失才發現心中有把真理的尺
勇氣它原來這裡開始
　
每一次的得失決定著我明天是什麼樣子
塞滿理想的城市淚水變成了奢侈
微笑是對自己的懂事

我願意拭目以待
去等待每份色彩
拭目以待我打造什麼未來
時間是個郵差按時遞送題材
我的夢我主宰你最明白

每一次的錯失會發現緊握空拳頭的手指
緊握的是跳躍的堅持
　
偶而會有迷失決定著人的幸福最後地址
成長沒有方程式跟隨真心的聖旨
你是我最值得的固執

拭目以待
去期待每份精彩
拭目以待那是怎樣的未來
我用雙手撐開天空每片的陰霾
我的夢我主宰風雨不改

Do something!

2009-02-16T09:56:00.001+08:00

I shall send few job applications TODAY.
I shall tidy my wardrobe and desk TODAY.
I shall call my aunt TODAY.
I shall list again my to-do list TODAY.

The nightmare this morning is scary. Probably deep in my heart, I know that I am guilty of procrastinating :S

Happy valentine

2009-02-15T21:27:00.001+08:00

I want to make a shout-out.

I am proud, grateful and excited to have Hidayat with me.

He gives me
emotional freedom,
trust,
loads of sayang,
Dharmic support,
attention when I need it
and patience.

We should remain mindful of ourselves and the relationship.
To hell with my excessive worries about failure in the future
and live the present moment to the fullest!
As the future is constructed by each pieces of "present moment"s.

Prescription - Meditation

2009-02-14T22:50:00.000+08:00

As Hidayat mentioned, I am mindful of the "trauma attacks" and be able to be subjective of it, but I lack the stability to manage my emotions. I should do regular meditation.

Yes! I shall do it! 5 minutes a day. Hope this medicine helps.

Thanks for the support in my spiritual practice and emotional problems, yat.

Sea Ming Blue

2009-02-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

I am currently plagued by "trauma attacks" (or dips).

I can be quite happy and suddenly, a big wave of blue swept me off my feet. The past unhappy memories began to drown me before I am able to stand up. The bitter-sour water come berduyun-duyun-ly (consecutive waves) until it suffocates me.

I need help. I need to do something or else I will go crazy at this short period of time.

Being mindful that these thoughts are not what I really think, I see them as a kind of mental sickness which will relapse until the past is fully let go of. Wo ming bai this is just part of the mood swing.

All in all, these water, upon analysis, do tell me something about the sea. It still needs time before it is self-sustainable.

The moral of the story:
1. Too much of attachment, really brings suffering.
2. Don't give yourself email names such as seamingblue@yahoo.com.
3. DO SOMETHING! Exercise! Eat healthily! Speak out problems! And constantly be MINDFUL.

My first post!

2009-02-13T23:41:00.000+08:00

Welcome to my blog!

This new year, marks an exceptional milestone for me.
I have graduated from the academic world, just got together with my boyfriend, decided to let go of the past, and I start to adopt a healthier lifestyle.

I yearned for a blog for some time. I love to express my thoughts. As much as I converse better in Chinese, I feel that I can write better in English. So my blog will have a mixture of both languages =p

New year (not so new ya, haha). New status. New mindset.

Bon voyage!

Just keep swimming

The poetry has moved...

Teddy bear gives

失眠

Action of the Month - Badminton

Drama-mama

睡不著

2010 resolutions

He plays computer games, I talk

Avatar

有创作就好了

Tarot Reading

Searching for My Destiny

明天一定会更好

Addiction

The Last Career Guide You'll Ever Need

Don't take things TOO seriously

Finding the Way

美人魚的愛

家有一老如有一宝

耐心 行

哭

Gone are the Trees

无惧

Empty

My Precious...

To Love Someone

How worse can it gets?

I want to feel relaxed and have fun!!

跑回（出）记忆

放手的爱

Challenge

诗人

Corridor of Doors

由谁来决定规则 没有这样的必要

谢谢你们给我的24岁生日礼物

等火车

[Science News] Doctors Endorse Well-planned Vegan And Vegetarian Diets For Healthy Pregnancies

FIRST run - 4.3km

【转帖】西班牙研究：祖父母帶大的孩子更懂事

西班牙‧研究：心理更健康成長‧祖父母帶大的孩子更懂事

大发现！蓝奕邦！

Fish with a Transparent Head

拭目以待

Do something!

Happy valentine

Prescription - Meditation

Sea Ming Blue

My first post!

耐心行

由谁来决定规则没有这样的必要