Empty

Almost got knocked down by a car. Thanks to all the conditions that I am still alive now.

For a long while, I have been feeling empty. I have been putting this feeling aside for many times. But it is still there. Like I am living in a dream. I don't feel real. Don't feel solid.

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Let it be. Empty feelings in the inner soul can't be filled by clinging to external objects, actions or even relationships. Look within. Look within. Sit still. Watch the beautiful world around. Count blessings. Be mindful. Be grateful. Be compassionate. Observe.
The Triple Gems will guide me through my way. I take refuge in the Buddha, my teacher (not idol). I take refuge in the Dharma, his teachings. I take refuge in the Sangha, the community of practitioners.
With palms folded. Thank you, world. I love the world, the people, my family, my friends and myself, no matter what you have given me, even if I feel empty.
I am not worried or saddened by this 'emptiness'. It is just an emotion. It is just a mode of information. One day it will reveal a piece of previously unknown information about myself.
Up til now, not much regrets in my life. Just do my best and leave the rest.

My Precious...

Family

They are the main reason why I enjoyed my graduation ceremony so much. Having three of them coming down to Singapore purposely for me just thrilled me.

My mom kept taking pictures of me, when I was posing, taking pictures with my friends, chatting with my friends, walking, arranging hair and robes, putting items on chair, etc. I guess in her eyes, I am forever her baby.

My sister was enjoying herself eventhough I didn't have much time for her. She snapped photos of different objects while we were busy. She is constantly curious about Singapore. Having her around makes me feel like I am a traveller spending my vacation right here.

My pak pak was smiling all the way. He patiently waited when there is nothing for him to do, kept taking videos of us. After the video camera battery went flat, he used his handphone to take pictures.

I had such a great time with them that I cried when they left! I thought I was independent leh..

Of course, I am very very grateful to my cousin sister Sook Yee and cousin brother Cheng Ho who gave me this superb bouquet of flowers and graduation bear, my housemates for buying me a cow who is holding a rose, Mei Fei and Hui Yee who brought this cute pink sunflower to me all the way. Thank you ^_^

Last but not least.. thank you my dear who helped me keep my family company when I was busy, helped me carry heavy/bulky items all the way, take pictures...