Friday, February 13, 2009

Sea Ming Blue

I am currently plagued by "trauma attacks" (or dips).

I can be quite happy and suddenly, a big wave of blue swept me off my feet. The past unhappy memories began to drown me before I am able to stand up. The bitter-sour water come berduyun-duyun-ly (consecutive waves) until it suffocates me.

I need help. I need to do something or else I will go crazy at this short period of time.

Being mindful that these thoughts are not what I really think, I see them as a kind of mental sickness which will relapse until the past is fully let go of. Wo ming bai this is just part of the mood swing.

All in all, these water, upon analysis, do tell me something about the sea. It still needs time before it is self-sustainable.


The moral of the story:
1. Too much of attachment, really brings suffering.
2. Don't give yourself email names such as seamingblue@yahoo.com.
3. DO SOMETHING! Exercise! Eat healthily! Speak out problems! And constantly be MINDFUL.

2 comments:

Cerah Sie said...

be concious what u're doing, because if u aware, we do thing more unconcious than concious. it need practise, when u became fully aware and concious, life become lightly. concious means that u know what u do exactly, u feel ur self. jia yu!

sea ming said...

Thanks Cerah!! So happy to see you leaving comments in my blog. :)

Yes, must be conscious, aware and mindful :) Practise makes perfect. Thanks for the reminder.