Empty

Almost got knocked down by a car. Thanks to all the conditions that I am still alive now.

For a long while, I have been feeling empty. I have been putting this feeling aside for many times. But it is still there. Like I am living in a dream. I don't feel real. Don't feel solid.

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Let it be. Empty feelings in the inner soul can't be filled by clinging to external objects, actions or even relationships. Look within. Look within. Sit still. Watch the beautiful world around. Count blessings. Be mindful. Be grateful. Be compassionate. Observe.
The Triple Gems will guide me through my way. I take refuge in the Buddha, my teacher (not idol). I take refuge in the Dharma, his teachings. I take refuge in the Sangha, the community of practitioners.
With palms folded. Thank you, world. I love the world, the people, my family, my friends and myself, no matter what you have given me, even if I feel empty.
I am not worried or saddened by this 'emptiness'. It is just an emotion. It is just a mode of information. One day it will reveal a piece of previously unknown information about myself.
Up til now, not much regrets in my life. Just do my best and leave the rest.