Searching for My Destiny

I always thought I am clear of what I want in life, what I like to do etc. Not until started job hunting and working.

I am sure about my goal in life: to make the world a better place. It is not really saving the world. It is simply leaving a clean profit, bringing more benefits to the world rather than minuses. My final career, has to be directly contributing to the benefits of the society, whether it is working with old people, orphans, or teaching etc.

But what is my profession in my life? Looking at my strengths and interests. I can say that I like dealing with people, come up with creative (stupid) ideas, keep things nice and tidy and fun. Having got out of Food Science and decided that this is not something that has me burning with passion, I don't have much basic for other career profession. I like marketing, but I don't have any backgrounds in marketing. I don't mind teaching or in non-profit organisations but just want to work in somewhere else first.

Searching, thinking, examining with personality tests... I bump into a few articles in my Google Search which gave me a new perspective of my soul (career) search.

“It isn’t normal to know what we want. It is a rare and difficult psychological achievement.” - psychologist Abraham Maslow

What I just realised is, I can never find out what I am meant to be, just by sitting there and analysing alone. I have to do the work and experience, only I get to feel what is suitable. Be in the moment.

"Moments matter most. Build off of a few strong moments, follow the path they lay out for you, and trust your direction. They will not let you down." - Marcus Buckingham, Oprah article on "How Do I Discover My Purpose"

Guess for now, let go of searching. Just do it and ehi passiko (means "come and see" in Pali language)! As my future is built by all the present moments. If the moments are fitting and fantastic, so will my future be :)

明天一定会更好

不知道是自己容易满足还是神经太大条

觉得自己一生的经历算是顺畅的

虽然是有不幸的事情发生在家里或自己身上

过了一段时间，连痛苦的感觉也忘了，剩下历史性记载的回忆

而且无论好坏与否，许多过去的事情都带来了成长空间与发展机会

总觉得，我一定会得到好收获

直到前一年认识 The Secret 的吸引力法则 (Law of Attraction)

开始怀疑这道理是不是可以解释我的遭遇？

它的提倡，让我更相信，明天会更好

只要真心对待每一个人，不管他如何回报你

只要帮助人时，自己也要清醒，懂得保护自己

只要保持正念，不要成天抱怨

只要记得，我来到这世界上要带来什么、得到什么

我一定会如愿以偿

就算得不到我要的结果

正面的思维和态度也会让我的人生充满朝气

吸引力法则在我身上应验了。明天会更好。

Addiction

Isn't addiction scary? You know you have to stop, but you just can't stop. Even if you stop for a period of time, once you pick it up, the whole string of addiction come back to live. The emotional mind just can't be controlled by pure logical reasoning. There has to be something, some way other than discipline, to counteract addiction. Something that directly engages the emotional mind, distracts it and lure it to somewhere more productive. There has to be an action that can substitute the act of committing the addiction. That action has to be fun, so that it is easier to start it...

Addiction to procrastination. Addiction to worry. Addiction to feelings. Addiction to past. Addiction to instant noodles. Addiction to staying up late. Addiction to reading.